Beginning of my Final Piece and the Idea Behind it

For my final piece for my personal investigation I am currently at the time of this being posted considering to do a small room filled with textural canvases and windows all with either fabric or words written out of thread similar to 'Help' and 'Am I Worth It' and suspending them from the ceiling in all manner of angles and heights and have a light in the middle of this room so that when you walk around the piece the light is reflecting all of the words onto the walls behind you and all around you similar to Parker's 'Cold Dark Matter' but in amongst the hanging canvases and pieces I want to have personal effects with them to make the piece more intimate and personal.

 Almost in essence scare the viewers, almost choke them with the size of the room and the amount of canvases in it to really get people questioning what is the meaning behind this piece and make them feel like they are in the mind of a person with a mental illness.

This has all sprung from this one piece of work I did that gave my the idea to do it which I want this piece to be a part of, this piece has yet to be named but I love the way that it's like a hospital screen and it blurs away whatever is behind it due to the texture on the window itself and I like this because it takes the personality away from the person as they or whatever body part is behind the window into this blurry haze of colours and dehumanises them.

5/11/2015 Exhibition

I feel as a whole the exhibition went very well for me, I am happy with the work I presented and feel that it showed an accurate representation of my work and where I am going with my project in the course so far. To critic it though I would have to say that due to my piece being horizontal and very long, the space that was available for me to do my piece wasn't great as it meant that people walked straight by my work rather than stopping and looking at it especially through the proper angle the piece is supposed to be looked through by.

The one major thing I struggled with a few days before the exhibition and on the actual day was stress and stress on a level that I'd never experienced before, I went through many things from hating all my work the day before the exhibition and having a breakdown because I didn't know what to do about it, to just generally being very unhappy about my work. However once the exhibition started I was fine and realised I was being irrational and was just overly stressed. The main thing I am going to be taking away from this exhibition is that the placement of installations in a complex shaped room is key so that people look at it but also so that it doesn't take away from the other work around it.

Another thing I did with the room was because the area I had chosen to present my piece has a skylight in the roof it affected the light and meant that it was very bright around my piece and devalued what it actually looked like so I decided to use the skylight itself creatively and bring in more fabric and material into my work so rather than adding tons of texture to my boards I added it to the actual space around my work so it served a practical use to block out the majority of the sunlight as well as drawing in my influences of fabric and texture from my sketchbook into my work without actually being on my work and I feel this was very successful and is certainly something to consider next exhibition.

 After I did this I felt happy with my work and I feel that it fitted in better and had a better all round showing of my ideas up to that point in the course. I naturally as well also took many up close photos of this to show off all the texture with my use of photography which is something I've loved exploring so far throughout my coursework.